Monday, August 8, 2011

Toxic Purge

Negativity will drag you down. Even if you think that it isn't bothering you, deep down it is affecting you without you even realizing it. This can come in many forms: words, expressions, jobs. friends and even personal items. I slowly started purging just with observations. Ever hear the statement," If you would shut up long enough you would be able to hear what's going on around you?"  How very true it is. I started listening to how people were talking to me. Taking the time to dissect what they REALLY meant behind the " I don't want to hurt you" or "I just wanted to get your attention" statements. It didn't matter if they came from family or friends, they were said. We ALL have or had people in our lives like this. I felt GREAT when I let them go out of my life. Like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. Getting to the point of just letting someone know that they are negative and you do not want them in your life anymore can be harder than it sounds. But think of it this way.... You have an old pair of jeans that have served their purpose, You just bought a whole new wardrobe and feel fantastic about it. As you are putting everything away you come across "the jeans". They don't fit in to your new wardrobe (life) because they are just not right for you anymore. Dilemma... Toss them or keep them around just because. How many "just because" items do you have in your life?

Purging makes us feel better. It is healthy in so many ways. Mentally, Emotionally, Spiritually and Physically. Did you know that you can actually make yourself sick from keeping unhealthy things in your life? If you don't want to call it that, try "Spring Cleaning ". We all know it's hard work and we know it has to be done but no one really wants to get their hands dirty. So when IS the right time to take care of business? For me, it was when I started to get angry. Last week I dumped 2 garbage bags of clothes off at The Goodwill Box. I kept them around as my safe clothes. My just in case I gained 5 or 6 lbs. Or the "fat day" clothes. Really?!?! 2 bags worth??? It was the next confident step in to my next phase. I am pretty sure I did that with "those" friends too. I just kept them around just in case. See where I'm going??

Letting go of my fat past has helped me to move in to this new life with a new perspective. I love it! I love all the new positive people I have in my life. The ones that are a breath of fresh air. The ones where I don't have to hide my enthusiasm for feeling good. Or when I am having a killer boot camp night they are in my ear pushing me. I tend to get a little angry when I am focused and I hear things being said TO me. So I would like to publicly apologize to Crystal Cox and Jenna Inglis for getting mean while doing tricep dips. They are not my favourite exercise. Like they are right up there with burpies but I do them because I know they are going to benefit me in the end. And YES they were pushing me with positive words and energy like I have always done with them but that night, during that round in the circut there was nothing I wanted to hear.. LOL. I'll show you how those triceps are actually shaping up next time....

So create a new you. Peel back the layers that are just hanging around and are not really necessary in your life ( kind of like your tailbone ) and get rid of them. Underneath all of that toxicity is this beautiful flower waiting for clean air to breathe and flourish and grow. Don't be afraid to still hold on to some thorns to keep away the pests either.

This is my Positive for the day.... " I am an ecological treasure. Without me here this earth would not be the same". Find your positive and tell the world :)